就那么几天

夜半孤寂

突然

寂寞来袭

这种

莫名的感觉

着实

很恐怖

很恐怖很恐怖

我害怕了

没有你的日子

我该怎么活?

我该怎么过?

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失望的汤圆

红汤圆在锅里滚动

他心情很不好。

他对白汤圆说，

你对我

总是少了那么一点点关心，

那么一点点包容。

汤圆被煮熟了

他的份量变轻了

于是

他浮上了水面。

今年冬至

你我都没吃汤圆

密密麻麻的对不起

按不下的发送

发呆的我

颤抖的手

两行的泪

白痴的等

黄昏

凉风

庭院

我坐在石板凳上。

散散

枯黄色的落叶

甚至有些深褐色的

沙沙划过我的脚下

这一切

好宁静

好懈意

我出了神

呆望着

那

被枫树叶

染成深红的

夏秋的长空

那秋天浓浓的味道

轻轻的闻

都能感觉到

爸

走了过来

"在做什么?"

"吹风"

他坐了下来

沉默片刻

"以后..." 他停顿了一下

"长大要做什么?"

我不语

"唔.."

"梦想.. 是做人的条件"

我还会意不过来

他接着说

"人呐.. 没了梦想.. 再怎样都不会活得快乐"

"就算是.. 再怎样厉害的人.. 都有想要的梦想.."

爸用他生涩的华语极力地想要表达着

"不管再怎样.. 你还是要决定长大后的路"

"嗯.."

然后，

爸很用力的往我肩膀拍了一下，

站起

然后进家了。

留下肩膀上麻麻的痛

我仍然呆望着天空

有点放空的脑袋

正细细回想着

一字一句

爸说的话

秋天的风

从背心滑落

倘开的胸怀

载着满满的秋风

壮志热血

却似乎将夜凉的秋风变得滚烫了

胸口火热着

我当时就决定

以后

要做一个有用的人

很可笑

笑吧

有用的定义?

我也说不清

当时就这样决定了

沙沙

那个秋夏的黄昏

就那样

我深深刻印在脑海里

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

时光一刷

已经是三年后

很突然的

今夜

记忆剥落

往事突然冲上心头

惊然觉得

梦想

是否已离我越来越远?

我迷失了?

我究竟在往哪里走?

当时小时候立下的梦想

当时的热血

如今却都早已冷却

当时的壮志

如今却已烟消云散

是该梦醒了

是否太迟了?

我不再是十一二岁了

我不再是小鬼头了

能否请你不要再那么废物?

对不起，

我很没用。

拜托回来 | 佐克

终于

佐克的双手

被封锁了

文字

竟如

被封印着的

深深刻制住

一切所想表达的

想呐喊想发泄想诉说想抒发想宣告的

竟然再也无法用文字解脱

此刻草稿箱里

脑海中

遍布的都是

文不及字

意不达词

狗屁不通的散笔

尝试着

我

但也

始终无法

突破

潜藏在我灵魂深处的

佐克

被折翼的恶魔

深深的坠地

从此

转化为人

怎么回事?

有一个人，很久没有写东东了。

雨

时而轻狂

时而细腻

一直都没停过

一整天了

宝贝生病了

一整天都没听见你的声音

很不习惯

原来

当爱一个人变成了习惯时

你会在不知不觉地

把她放进你生活里的一部分

那已经

那已经慢慢转变成生活习惯

宝贝老婆

一定要快点好起来哦

雨后

浓雾

天气很冷

窝在被里的我很不想醒

无奈

空肚在催促

伸了一个很长很长

差不多要一分钟的懒腰

套上一个冷帽

双手插进牛仔裤里

就下了去

找我那下午四点的早餐

天气实在很冷

尽管雨停了

冷风嗖嗖

还是把

穿着无袖背心的我

凉得打了个冷颤

尽管双手

都放在牛仔裤的口袋里

可是

却还是有

一丝丝冻僵的感觉

冷帽也似乎

只是装饰

突然觉得

我睡醒的这身造型

很帅

此刻

心情

就如雨后的天空一样蓝

找到了我的早餐

冷天

热腾腾的食物

冒出白白的蒸汽

我突然就好饿

好饿好饿

吃了好多

好满足

好满足

吃饱了

就没目标地

在周围游荡

现在

不想打机

不想读书

更别提起那烦人的耳塞闷

因为雨天的关系

一个鬼影都没

人影更别想看到

此刻

很自由

却也很孤独

有时

就是太过自由了

反而会被自由给拘束

什么都由自己决定

没有你想象来的容易

一个人的生活

没有那么的让人好过

自由给自由捆绑了

留下的只有寂寞

My HoN Assignment

Hunting down Kongor for the Token of Life

This is a new map different with the old 1. Three lanes but make it more easier to look. The Legion are hunting down the boss of this map, that can drop an unique item.

This is the boss of Watchtower.

Pollywog Priest, based on Shadow Shamman. His ulti now so cute with the little frog like things.

Chen, the Holy Knight. Named as Ophelia now. Sexy huh? That's why all the creeps wanna follow her control.

NA? Nope! You're wrong!! Everyone shout out the "Nerubian Assassin" at the first sight, even me too! Dun get

buff, it was Slardar, Slithereen Guard. Really!! I'm not kidding! Totally same skills, same action. His ulti now release some annoying swarm to greatly reduce your armor and get the sight of you. Funny huh?

Ya, this's not the sandman at Spiderman 3. I think everyone can recognize this dump thing. Ya, it's pebbles, that was Tiny the Stone Giant in DotA.

This stupid face call Madman. I could saw him in almost every match. I jz know it got some combine skills with troll and pa?

Glacius, based on Crystal Maiden in DotA. I dun like him much since his ulti visual effect didn't giving much surprise to me as wat I expect it to be.

Pyromancer, Lina the Slayer in DotA. It's LSA now summon a dragon from the ground to stun an area of enemy. It's soooo cool! I think you will like his massive ulti too.

Pharaoh. Anything still on research. It's Goblin Clockwerk.

I think this one is easy to guess. Mayb some of you had alrdy got it. Chronos. Faceless Void in DotA. His ulti really got an amazing visual.

Wretched Hag. Based on Queen of Pain. The skills got some delay now.. izit my problem? I jz cant make a prefect combo now.

Zephyr. A new hero in HoN. I jz know it push very fast and got some strange skills.

Voodoo Jester. Ya, you got it. It was Witch Doctor. Death ward looks like had been holding on his hand now.

War Beast, try to guess wat hero it was? Night Stalker? Nope. Axe? Nope. Doom Bringer? Nope. Barathum? Nope! Ok! Enuf guessing, the answer is Lycanthrope! His ulti that turn

him into a Demonic Hunter really look awesome.

Electrician, a totally new hero. Some skills seem like Storm Spirit.. stil on researching..

Argh.. this ugly thing.. Defiler, as Dead prophet in DotA. Her ulti will make your whole screen looks nice.

Ok. No nid talk much or explain anything for this. If you really dunno wat is this, then you better jump out from your window right now. Night Houd, the stealth assassin. Was now a quite famous hero in HoN.

Tempest, based on Enigma in DotA. Not much change whether his skills visual effect or his model. Jz from his face I alrdy can see he using his ulti absorb all the enemy in the warfield.

Who was this stupid face? The gay? The dummy? I m shocked to know that he was Sven, the Rogue Knight!! How can it be!! I think he better get equip himself with a hook and act like butcher. His name was Hammerstorm. I really dun wan to see this dump thing open his God Strength. Not interested at all.

I dun think that got anyone can't recognize it. Even through it has change from a pig(?) to a snake(?)?? Whatever wat it is, it's stil Bristleback, now named as Armadon, the creature of hardest skin.

Wow! Shout it out! This fellow is so cool from DotA and even now HoN. It was Megabane, Magina the Anti-mage. Its second and third skills had even change more and more powerful. The blink now give an magic resistant armor to allied!? wtf...

Here's come my favourite hero, the Maliken! It was totally a new born hero to destroy. His legendary sword, the Sword of the Damned, can turn him into 2 attack status, that sacrificed his life exchange for huge dmg, or reduce his power but also restore his life. I bet 10 bucks you all will love his visual effect for both the status and for sure, his Demonic ulti.

Let this guy blow you head off with his axe. Ya, he was Legionnaire, the Axe in DotA. I so tu lan to see his lan c face. Additional, the same with his shouting sound for the first skill. Teng, this hero suit you.

Zeus Zeus Zeus!! No nid to doubt. It was Zeus the Lord of Olympia!! No matter now he turn into a monkey or gorilla, you still better dun kidding with his thunder. He was named Thunderbringer. Give it banana. Give it banana.

Argh.. this ugly face.. I dun wan talk more about her(?) It's jz a remade hero from Viper. Her(?) name was Arachna. It's the hottest hero for now. Believe me, you will saw her(?) in every match. I repeat, in every match.

Wahaa.. wat is it? wat is it? You're right! Bloodhunter, the Bloodseeker in DotA. It's sounds so disgusting especially its ulti sound effect. Yiark...

Dun tell me you cant recognize it. Then you better go hit your head at the wall for playing DotA so many years. Devourer, pudge the Butcher! Another disgusting hero. Now it can buy dagger. You now sure asking "wat?!!" Ya! This ugly thing and vengeful can now use dagger. How its works? Go find out yourself.

He's still on processing but I think he wont take long time to see you guys in game soon. Haha.. everyone guessing who was him and finally the answer out. Teng teng teng teng!! Witch Hunter, Lion the Demon Witch in DotA!! Get shocked?? Even me too!! Lots of ppl give some funny guessing like "Kunkka".. "Sniper".. "Van Hellsing".. "Captain Jack Sparrow"... Hmm.. I can now imagine he took out his huge metal cannon and blast out his deadly destruction ulti!!!!

I think many of you alrdy can know this guy jz from the first sight. Ya, he was Kraken, which was the Tide Hunter in DotA. Its skills got some change. I really dunno how to use his ulti. I wonder will it still appear in a draft game?

Behemoth, the earthshaker. Dunno wat happen, he was not so destructive and powerful more although his skills didn't change at all..

Can you imagine this is Mercurial, the Spectre in DotA!? All i can say is he was so cool and amazing!! Now he got a new name "Sand Wraith". His first skill let him walk through everything with his sand body. His ulti then straight let him and his illusion get to the behind of every visible heroes, prey and hunt them down! Arghh... damn awesome!!!

This is Accursed, which based on Lord of Avernus, the Abbadon in DotA. I'm sure you all will like his burning sword that make his foe slowing and will slashing faster and faster!

刚才..

忘了在哪里了..

走着走着..

很突然的听见了..

很熟悉的音乐

前奏听着听着..

很熟悉很熟悉..

却说不出是什么..

我突然就停下脚步

很仔细地听着

终于..

音乐一走..

竟然是

回到过去

杰伦对不起..

不是太久没听你的歌了..

只是因为很突然的..

不可能会

听见华语歌的那种时候..

很难想像

很难想到

那竟然会是

华语歌

相信我

虽然那些yoyoyo的歌

听多了

你在我心里的位置

始终没有变

突然就很感动

就突然有很多感触

触碰着心深处

一回去

马上就找了出来

一直听了好几遍

那种纯纯的享受

一遍遍地感动

突然很想回到以前那种时光

每晚

很无聊的

就窝在房间

重复听着一遍又一遍

听了好多次好多次的周杰伦

那种感觉

很温暖

五点多了

心里终于完全平静下来了

刚刚的三百多个miss call

我一点也没怪你的意思

你生病

是该好好休息

只是你从来都不会这样不说一声就睡着了

300多个calls你都听不到

哈...

我的老婆是猪啊..

我拼了命的打

因为我找不到第二个方法

能够找到你

接近一个小时

电话那头一直在响

可是就是没人接

我慌了

真的不知道怎么办

就是一直打一直打一直打一直打

泪

控制不了的流

在你终于接起电话

声音响起的一刹那

我真的

整个人就倒在地上了

还好什么事都没有

我胡思乱想了

心现在还跳得很快

我累了

睡了

思念衬托着我的孤单

好久好久

这是久违的一篇

最近

太多太多东西在忙

我累了

偶然

在某个夜深人静的时候

静静地回想

回过神

一晃间

时间就过去了

到底我做了什么?

好像

什么都没有..

什么都没有..

我到底

为何会觉得这么空虚..?

的确

夜深了

一切都好暗好暗

星星

闪闪

洒落在漆黑得发亮的夜幕中

天空

就如一大片大片的布幔

笼罩住了天空

遮盖住了太阳

为大地带来了宁静的黑夜

意识着休息的黑夜

表示着结束一天的黑夜

对我来说

却一点也没改变

早上一样的过

夜晚也一样的过

我一向来都是一个人

人潮中

我独自在巴士站等着

我独自在座位上坐着

我独自在马路旁走着

我独自在人群中排队着

我独自在台下看着

我独自在角落坐着

我独自在房间吃着杯面

我独自在电脑前对着

我独自在纸上画着写着

我独自..

...

...

...

...

...

我独自地

在每一天独自着

越想你

我就越寂寞

原来你没忘记我

还以为某人说在等我要唱生日歌是开玩笑的

没想到这头电话一关他的MSN也offline了

难道真的是真心在等我?

也许也是他的孩子脾气他才会这样

不过我想跟你说

从第一天跟你认识一起打DotA到现在为止

我非常庆幸认识你这个朋友

p/s : 你的生日歌还要练过

老公...
迟来的生日快乐...
我知道你已经等很久了..
只是那天又搞到酱..
真的很想在你身边...
对不起..
老婆做不到..
什么都做不到..
连礼物..也要拜托朋友交给你.
真的很没用...
老公...
未来的每一年每一天...
老婆一定要跟你一起过...

每次跟你吵架..

我也不知道..

我们几时开始一直在这样..

每吵一次..

我们关系就越来越..

我很怕很怕很怕...

老公...
真的很对不起...
生日你还一个人过..
什么都不能做..
又搞到两个人都哭死了....
那时真的很心痛很心痛...
很讨厌这种感觉...
不知道能说什么了...
生日搞到酱...
真的只能讲...
老公..
对不起...
以后我不会再惹你生气了..
我知道你是在乎我才会酱的..
我都知道...
也答应我...
以后不要再伤害自己了..
好吗...??
我的心会更痛的...

我真的很在乎你的...
老公仔...
相信我...
爱你...
我们要一天比一天更爱对方...
更珍惜...

I ROCK MY ROOM TONIGHT

I'm here without you babe

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you babe

and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you babe

But you still with me in my dreams

And tonight,

girl

It's only you and meeee

希望你懂

I'm always proud to call you my girl

也许

没了我

你依旧

还是那个你

我只知道

没了你

我肯定

不再是这个

黄子川

你已经变成

我的一部分

或者说

你已经是我的全部

喜怒哀乐

因为你

茶饭不思

因为你

坐立难安

因为你

心还在跳动

都只因为你

这样

很不公平

我是否真的不够好?

别怕，

我还在电话这一头

紧紧牵着你的手

信号断了

你却迷路了

找不到朋友

很急很急的

别哭

别哭

我的心一直紧紧扣着你的手

不曾放松

可是

我急得就快哭出来了

你电话却没电了

两个小时

熬得我

把指甲都咬光了

就快

把手掌给搓烂了

可是我的心

不曾放手